The Woman Named Amy

So I met this woman named Amy. The situation had the strong potential to be extremely awkward. She and her boyfriend, my neighbor, were coming over for dinner with his two sons. But the thing is, her boyfriend is the ex-husband of one of Mom's best friends. I found myself trying, yet failing, to convince myself that I could truly, honestly like her.

She seemed impressed by me right off the bat. This was, by itself, somewhat surprising. My surprise was only to be built upon. The conversation was between my mother, Amy, and myself, and it turned to politics. Being sincerely impressed at the 19-year-old with not only an opinion, but one that could be reasoned and explained fairly well, I, for lack of a better phrase, blew poor Amy out of the water.

Finding myself somewhat captivated by this new woman who had not only faced family tragedy, but also done volunteer work in Africa and visited Italy some five times, I sort of followed her about the house, dancing between conversing and listening intently.

Through a series of chance events and encounters, I wound up alone in the library with that very woman. It had arisen earlier that I was floating in the center of three very different majors; psychology, film, and marine zoology (which apparently does not actually exist, so marine biology). She asked me how, exactly, I had ended up in such a position, seeing as the three are hardly related. Sure, film can go with either of those, but psychology and marine biology don't really have many over-lapping features. I explained how I had happened upon psychology via my grandfather. She then asked my how marine biology had happened. What was it that I liked so much about marine biology?

The speechlessness that ensued is impossible. I opened my mouth several times, feeling an answer of the tip of my tongue that was so completely imagery that I couldn't even begin to imagine how to describe it. Each time I tried to speak, my smile grew slightly larger. With a breath of almost exasperation, but far too joyful to be anything of the sort, I admitted defeat. I found myself talking about the most pointless things: my frustrations at humans interfering with marine life during "research," my thoughts being the exact opposite of my mother's "they sure are ugly things aren't they," upon the viewing of a Great White Shark. The more I spoke, the more I knew, the more I realized, the more I found myself saying, "that's probably what I'll end up doing."

It all fits together. The only thing that makes summer even mildly tolerable is the idea of sitting underwater for hours at a time. Mom often referred to me as a "sealy," the proper term for which is a "Selkie," because the seals at the zoo seemed somehow drawn to me--added of course, to the fact that I only ever came up from beneath the water's surface to breathe. Even when I was deathly afraid of sharks, and wouldn't dare sleep with any part of limb hanging from my bed for fear of it being eaten off, I was completely captivated and fascinated. I went whale watching with Mom while in Boston, and though I got sea sick and didn't see more than the lower backbone of a few Mink and Finn whales, I have never been happier (with a few rare exceptions--all of which you are aware)... Mom refuses to be truly satisfied until she has seen a humpback dive. I refuse to be happy until I have seen a whale dive from beneath the surface.

And thus, a conclusion was reached, and the only question yet to be answered it how.